The Comedy Of Normalcy

“At bottom every man knows well enough that he is a unique being, only once on this earth; and by no extraordinary chance will such a marvellously picturesque piece of diversity in unity as he is, ever be put together a second time.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche

“If you are always trying to be normal, you may never know how amazing you can be.”

-Maya Angelou

Each one of us is made of the most unique combination of cells, thoughts and personalities. I know I say it all the time, in different words but always the same meaning; and I am not scared of repeating myself because I truly believe so.
In light of this acknowledgement (or fact), it is only fair to say that we all have something that makes us stand out, in our own small and big ways, in this crowd of a 7.7 billion (and counting, literally!).
Lets proceed for once with the assumption, as the base, that you agree with my belief and believe in my thought too.

“I think every person has their own identity and beauty.
Everyone being different is what is really beautiful. If we were all the same, it would be boring.”

-Tila Tequila

With such uniqueness and distinctiveness, the world should be a ball of creativity, bursting with ideas; and yet there seems to be an increased need and pressure to be different and also difficulty in achieving the status of standing out from the rest.
Isn’t that intriguing? Isn’t that something worth being curious about?
There have been days I’ve had conversations at length, with myself or with the forces of this world and found myself increasingly lost rather than at peace.

E.E. Cummings once said that “To be nobody but yourself in a world doing its best to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human can ever fight and never stop fighting”.
Why do we have to struggle and battle for something that has been given to each one of us, so unconditionally?

Could it be that a select few, whom we know nothing of, have created a divide between crazy and acceptable?
We are usually so scared of accepting anything that isn’t what the majority follows that we label, shame and stereotype them. I’m not talking about the big taboos, I’m hinting at the smaller habits of everyday life, the hobbies one wishes to pursue, the things that one doesn’t like, the chores that the family divides, the way we address our kids or the things that we strongly say NO to without even a thought.

It’s funny how the normalcy that everyone wants to achieve is defined by someone we’ve never met and cannot quote. Its interesting how the world demands uniqueness and we are eager to judge the ones who are different and readily abandon them. And miraculously, we are coerced into being like everybody while still holding the volcanic potential of being somebody.
So, is normalcy what we achieve when we can’t achieve what we independently and personally want to achieve??
Isn’t it ironical?

Life’s no piece of cake, mind you, but the recipe’s my own to fool with.”

-Murakami

Come on, I know we live in a society. And in order to survive we have to co-exist. And in order to co-exist we need harmony. And for harmony we need to co-ordinate or just be more alike.
But could it hurt so much to just replace our straight ‘No’ into a waited silence to hear them out??
After all, there is strength in diversity!

*The population estimate has been taken from World Population Clock

I’m Just Choosing

I wish to fly 
I’m unloading 
I’m not insensitive 
I’m just choosing 


It’s just another week.
It’s been a regular month.
It’s an ordinary weather.
It’s an average list of chores.
It’s the daily hum-drum.
It’s the same faces around.
But,
But I’m making the most of it.
I’m trying to make my state-of-mind extraordinary.
I’m day dreaming travel and researching hostels.
I’m considering my options and being hopeful for the long weekends.
I’m sprinkling plans and I know some are about to stick.
I’m making me.
I’m making myself happy.
I’m being more than just my immediate surroundings.
I wish to try
I’m learning
I’m not incoherent
I’m just choosing
Am I delusional, you may wonder.
I’m childish and dreamy you might say.
I’m unreliable you might believe.
But I’m happy Is all that I care.
I’m trying is all I know.
I’ll get my tickets stamped, is all that I need to believe.
Sure you wish I saw the reality that you see
I understand that you are uncomfortable with my antiques
You do genuinely try to make me normal
Everyone’s wishful for me to adhere and conform
But I’ve seen people cry under the happy masks
I’ve heard the gloomy silence behind your crackling laughter
I’ve felt the burden of the unshed tears
And I know they weigh me down
I wish to fly
I’m unloading
I’m not insensitive
I’m just choosing

IGNORANCE

“Not engaging in Ignorance is Wisdom”

The concept of Ignorance and its usage in life has always felt like a cross-roads situation to me. Certain questions such as: Whether to ignore or not, How much to ignore (in terms of quantity and percentage), Until when to ignore, Where to draw the line, For whom to draw the line, How to judge the eligibility of the situation and person in question, etc., etc… have lead to confusion and lack of clarity that has in turn led to further complications.

And the most commonly used and referred to quotes have done next to nothing in order to help me with it:

“Ignorance is Bliss”
&
“If you think education is expensive, then try Ignorance” -Derek Bok


I mean, I’m sure they are words of
great wisdom that have been spoken and written with great insights, but I wish they came with a booklet of instructions!

Think of a situation where you are at a market place (age no bar), and you over hear two friends having a conversation about a third person (who is not present at the site). Now lets assume that this third person is a public figure. With no intent of eavesdropping, you do hear a remark that is the opposite of the opinion that you hold about this public figure, who according to you is an influence in society (positive or negative).
So, do you try to get involved in their conversation or do you continue doing your own work-because BLISS!

In an alternative situation, lets say, you have no opinion because you are not familiar with this personality and their work in society and the world. Then do you let it pass or try and remember the name in order to educate yourself about them? Because for all you know, this person could be running for the Presidential elections of your country in the near future or be involved in the biggest scandal of the century or could just be dating your sibling in the future?

My dilemma being, how do you accept ignorance and agree to ignore acceptance. And is ignorance all about ignoring or more about accepting ignorance?

Hope all of you have an interesting week ahead!
I will be dwelling on my confusion for some time now, and will update you on my progress sooner than later.

ATTITUDE

it is an energy neutral term and yet is most commonly thought/ used in a negative context

This week’s word is an energy neutral term and yet is most commonly thought and used in a negative context.

“ATTITUDE”

a point of view, vantage point, frame of mind or perspective of an individual or a group, towards another individual, thing or situation

A predisposition or a tendency to respond positively or negatively towards a certain idea, object, person, or situation. Attitude influences an individual’s choice of action, and responses to challenges, incentives, and rewards.

(as defined on BusinessDictionary)

The word attitude has always interested me, just the way a hot pan interests a child who has been specifically told not to touch it.

Look at the definition and meaning of this word people! Not once does any definition say that it’s about the unacceptable or negative behaviours or situations. And yet how often is it said “You have attitude”, “You better watch that attitude of yours”, “I don’t like him, he has an attitude” and on and on…

If Antoine de Saint-Exupery’s words about attitude-

“The meaning of things lies not in the things themselves, but in our attitude towards them”

are to be believed, then our attitude towards attitude is what needs our attention.

I’m not sure what started it, but the common connotation and usage of the word is heavily negative, even though it is something that helps distinguish one from another. Its as unique as personality.

Come to think of it, it feels like an elaborate sadistic scheme. Like one fine boring morning someone decided to make a list of words such as breasts, ATTITUDE, sensuality, menstruation, depression, etc. and met up with a bunch of buddies. He shared the list with them along with his plan- “I’m going to create a certain amount of discomfort around these words and lets see if it goes viral”. And it did! *face palm* *eyes rolling into my head*

The taboo on it is so strong that when we intend to use the word ‘attitude’ with a positive connotation we tend to used the word positive or a synonym of it to explain our context (good, bright, growth oriented, etc…).

Am I getting to any point with it?

NO

Well this is just my rant about a phenomenon that I refuse to understand.

Responsible Travel

For a few days or a good portion of your lifetime, if you’re spending time somewhere, then at that point in your life that place is Home!
And taking responsibility for your home is only fair.

Before we dive into this one, I thought I should ask you a few quick questions-
1. Do you like to travel?
2. Have you ever moved around (for work or leisure, for short or long term)?
3. Do you think the world is a beautiful place, full of surprises?
4. Do you take responsibility for your surroundings?

Now that you know your answers, lets talk about the most amazing teacher that the universe has offered us and how we can begin or continue to show it our utmost respect!
The chance to experience life from different perspectives teaches us things that most libraries fail to. To witness cultures different from ones own, makes us more accepting than any diploma. A rendezvous with a heterogenous crowd is sometimes all the spiritual awakening needed.

As promised to myself earlier, I asked for insights and help from people around me and I’ve had the most absorbing learning experience. To hear someone passionately talk about things close to their heart rubs off a certain sense of high even on its audience and that’s exactly how I felt. Be it scaling mountains, finding off-beat locations, swimming around the corals or creating experiences… it has been intoxicating.
While my three points of contact had me giddy with the information and the imageries they painted, I’ve tried to summarise and make a list of things that they couldn’t stress enough and are simple to practice.

I got in touch with each one of them individually and they have re-affirmed my approach towards travel and tourism. To me, travel is when I visit a place and let the place submerge me into itself, from the folks to the lores, its economy and cuisines, all of it. Travel lacks the fear of missing out, which for me is usually associated with tourism; the need to finish my checklist of places-to-visit, not necessarily taking the chance to truly enjoy it. (1)

Before I start with their insights, let me list the 7 outdoor ethics that the world should live by.
1. Plan ahead and prepare
2. Travel and camp on durable surfaces
3. Dispose of waste property
4. Leave what you find
5. Minimize campfire impacts
6. Respect wildlife
7. Be considerate of other visitors
These pointers form the framework of responsibility and remain universal. These are further explained in detail by Leave No Trace; an organisation that is working towards sustaining the outdoors by teaching and inspiring people to enjoy the nature responsibly.

Moving on, here are the super obvious seeming things that most of us could easily over look while planning the next getaway, but should not. Things that were suggested by these super amazing travellers, and I know I’m going to adopt as a practice in my travels and life in general.
1. Research. Research. Research. Know the rules and laws of the land that you’re visiting. Acquaint yourself with their culture and practices so as to not offend anyone. Know the climatic swings and the culture sensitive points.
2. Travel Insurance. Its always better to be safe and protected.
3. Maps! Network and connectivity over mobile data could restrict you from exploring isolated spaces, but these will keep you from being lost.
4. Eat, Stay and Shop Local. The best way to support a community and enjoy it to the fullest is by being a part of it.
5. Do Not Feed Wild Animals
6. Carry your waste with you. If you cannot find a waste bin/basket on-site, then carry it with you until you reach one; plastic, cigarette buds, food leftovers, packaging wastes, etc.
7. Bring Reusable Bags. They are always handy and do not occupy space in your luggage.
8. Skip Straws and Single Use Plastic Water bottles. Use a water purifying system as and when possible.
9. DO NOT LITTER. Even if the locals do, and should goes without reason.
10. Lights Out. Everytime you leave a premise make sure to switch the lights off and other appliances, and try to use electricity mindfully.
11. Use Public Transport or Carpool. You never know which interesting story you might hear or become a part of!
12. Conserve Water.

TRAVEL FUN FACTS…. because, what better way to prove the above point!
Driving without your headlights on is illegal in Denmark, even during the day time.
It is illegal to spit in Barcelona.
Eating during Ramadan when in UAE is illegal.
You cannot frown in Milan.

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Much love and power to Mountaineerz, Wandermile and The Lume Weaver for being my points of contact, source of information and sharing their insights.

The picture is by Prakritee Sandilya, thank you love!!

ENVIRONMENT

This week I have a word that is used by all of us in varied contexts, tongues and tones. We have used it to reason our way through situations, and we have made it the cause or the consequence based on our requirements. That makes it a term worth discussing and talking about.

ENVIRONMENT
-the surroundings in which you live/work, and the way it impacts and influences your being-

Oh I know, it is a rather subjective term that has a volatile definition, changing composition from time to time, people to people, setting to setting…
But bare with me a moment longer… then, well!
You can judge this choice of word all you want.

So here is what I picked up from a book on Marketing Management. It says that all products have two concentric tiers of fundamental factors that form its market. The first circle has the Micro Environment while the next is the Macro Environment.
And VOILA! That was enough to have my wandering mind day-dreaming again.

Following the same theme, I realised that as humans we too have a Micro and Macro Environment that effects us as individuals and as members of the society and the world at large.
Our Micro Environment is made up of factors immediately surrounding us- family, friends, religion, culture, school/ university/ work place.
The Macro Environment is made up of factors bigger that us and our vicinity- economy, politics, technology, world climate.

Based on this logic and the definition of the word ‘environment’, everything and anything that happens around me and around the world can have a direct or indirect impact on me, as an individual.

And just like that the world has become a small place. Encompassed within the two concentric circles of my own environment!

Asking

Thrive as a lone wolf or bloom in a pack, it is a matter of choice…

Its one week into the New Year and I’m feeling the energy of my resolution germinate into something new. But this something new is coming with its own challenges. The first and foremost being that this is a One Man Page- which means a single person’s point of view, creativity, ability and time.

While I’m aware that that’s what a personal blog means! I’m also beginning to realize that the only reason we “Sapiens” have out-lived our counterparts as chimpanzees and evolved into the phenomenal beings that we are today, is because of our ability to co-exist among hundreds of mutually exclusive groups. What’s more fascinating is that we have the ability to forge connections while continuing to remain exclusive.

All this is pleasing to hear and further affirms our position on the top of the food chain; what bugs me is my ability to ask.
There are many a times when I’m faced with a choice. A choice to be the lone wolf and complete the task at hand with an average or above average performance. Or to have other people pool in and make the result extra-ordinary, in comparison to my lone job.

Its a situation that has me in knots pretty easily. And in retrospect I’ve often found these knots rather laugh worthy.
Think about it… I’m uncomfortable asking for something that I know, in most cases, improves and even amplifies my experience. And to be rational in the face of the fear-of-asking to make oneself understand that I’m not afraid of the help, I’m just afraid of being rejected on asking. Think if a baby thought that way?
We could as well be crawling our way into old age with no real civilized skill-sets, but just scavengering, hoarding, splattering.. AKA back to being a Chimp!

And since its not a rant, I’m now getting to the point.

A few days ago, I texted a bunch of people who I’d love to get insights from and asked them for Help in writing a piece based on their area of interest and/or expertise….*knots*….*knots*…*knots*…. And then something happened!
Most of them replied with “That sounds like fun, lets plan something”… “I’m looking forward to collaborating with you”…. “I’ll be happy to contribute”.
And now I’m super excited to plan, schedule, collaborate, work and create things that are more than just me.

While this isn’t a post like the ones thus far, but it’s something I couldn’t not share.
Also, its like a re-instated belief in humanity (remember, that’s the religion/ lens that I’m re-discovering my world with?). There are downs but none without ups. There will be rejections but there is acceptance too; but neither will exist if I don’t ask!

And time for some NEWS: I’m usually scrolling down @Educated Unemployed Indian and human am I caught by your “Words have Power/ Word of the Day”! Love what you’re doing there.
So I’ve decided that I’m going to start something similar but just a tad bit different.
I’m going to pick a word every week (language no bar) and share it with all you fabulous readers with the meaning and a piece of my thoughts.
You are always welcome to suggest words from your own language!

My Religion, My Resolution

I got in bed an atheist but a conversation made me a believer before I could close my eyes.

One more year is about to begin with one more box full of memories to look back upon. With the temperature dropping and the festivities picking up, I’ve been feeling all sorts of things.

You know how I’ve spent nights being grateful* to this year. I’ve been introduced to a new phobia- the fear of not having any travel plans finalised, and have internalised it more than necessary. The RJs and everyone else are singing the jingles and discussing New Years Resolutions.

As a person in dilemma regarding my New Years Eve plans and a higher chance of spending it in my fuzzy socks and beanie with a book and some music, I’m gladly surprised that my procrastination over making resolutions has lead to an enlightenment of sorts. I’m a person who can day dream situations, events and detailed conversations. One such episode had me waking up with a religion while I’d gone to bed an atheist by general definition.

It was an episode of an imagined debate, backed by my take on religion (that it’s a tool of instilling fear in order to create order, which has long been used against the society for power), I realised something about my own belief system. While I’m not a believer of any specific, well-practiced school of religion and way of living, I do identify with bits and pieces of the religion that my family ardently follows.

In an entire debate staged in my mind where I’m arguing against the idea that all non-believers of the textbook religion are atheists, while my alter ego is trying its best to tell me that I’m an atheist and that’s all right! I knew that the debate was quite useless as it wasn’t leading up to anything. But hey! what better place to have such a redundant chat than the thinking seat on a winter night, when the touch of the ceramic against my backside had sent shiver up my back?

So I entertained my own banter, assured that this was the best way to take my mind off the weather and my cold seat. In no time, the banter spiralled and I was telling my alter ego that I’m a person of science and humanity, and that comprises my religion. This new turn of events made everything all the more interesting and suddenly it followed me into my bed at the dead of the night.

For the first time that night, I became an active observer to the antiques of my mind. i was now of the viewpoint that the world can do with one less parameter of division. Instead we are in dire need of a common ground to come together. While climatic change and cruelty against animals is doing their bit, I advocated that right now there is a need for something bigger!

And that’s when I mouthed the word ‘HUMANITY’!

I’d suddenly convinced myself in the charade of this day dream, that Humanity is the religion that the world needs. Don’t get me wrong, all the existing religions are amazing in their own way and I in no way think that they need to be done away with. All I mean is that the primary religion of each individual should be humanity while their sub-religion could belong to their choice of God and Scriptures.

While I haven’t yet the clarity of what this religion will entail, I do have something that are pretty clear.

This would mean placing people and their feelings before things and my attachment to them.

This would mean being more considerate and less demanding.

This would mean sharing rather than scavenging.

This would mean being polite…

POLITE.Yes, that’s what it’s got to mean!

And quickly I came up with three basic ways how I’m going to be polite and try to spread my new found religion.

1. Instead of saying “sorry I’m late”, I’m going to practice thanking “Thank you for waiting for me”.

2. Instead of letting someone know that “Hey, you’re real bossy”, I’m going to try “You have great leadership skills and I just had an idea…”

3. Instead of losing my mind and saying “Leave me alone” I’m going to attempt a “Can I have a minute/some time to myself, before we continue to/with…”

Of course, three changed habits are not going to change the world, but I’m willing to believe that this attempt will change one heart at a time.

So here’s The Hazy Whisperer signing off for this year and looking forward to a more engaging and productive new year with all of you!

The above have now become my resolution for the years to come and if you have any thoughts to contribute to Humanity- a global religion, please do share.

A fruitful and comforting new year to all of you!!

Soirée

Everyone sees the same world but experiences and expresses it very uniquely!

Over a drive with someone close, I realised that each one of us likes the same music/songs for our own unique reasons. Intrigued by this thought, I decided to share with you all a bunch of songs that I love dearly, along with the reason why!

So here it goes…

“When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me”
-This Is Me by Keala Settle

The strength of the vocals, the scene that leads to the song in ‘The Greatest Showman’ and everything that the song stands for; its an absolute package deal for me! With the layers of complexes that each one of us deals with on a daily basis, a song that asks you to brace yourself is a perfect fit.

 “Vaqt kee Kaid mezindagee hai maghar
Chaand gadiyaan yahin hai jo azad hain
Chaand gadiyaan yahin hai jo azad hain
Inko ko kar meree jane jaan aa
Umar bar na taraste rho”
– Aaj Jaane Ki Zid Na Karo by FaridaKhanum

(Translates to: Life is restricted by time, it’s only these few moments that are free. So don’t loose out on them and then regret it for the rest of your life)
This song has always helped me when I know I’m in the dilemma of doing what is expected of me and what I really wish to do. It also reminds me to enjoy every little and big thing. For me its about travel, about reading and about all those things that I wish to do, that don’t necessarily add monetary or tangible value to me immediately.

“If it hadn’t been for Cotton-Eye Joe
I’d been married a long time ago
Where did you come from, where did you go?
Where did you come from, Cotton-Eye Joe?”
-Cotton Eyed Joe by Rednex

This song is like a pandora box of memories and a gateway into my childhood. Its my favourite song to get everyone dancing at an informal party. For me its about letting go and being childlike once again. You should try the dance!

Dil ki patang chahon mein gothe khati hai
Dhel toh do dekho kahan pe jati hai
Uljhe nahi toh kaise suljhoge
Bikhre nahi to kaise nihkroge”
-Pankhon Ko by Salim Merchant

(Translates to: Your heart is like a kite that runs wild in the shadows, but youry need to let it loose and then see where it reaches. If you aren’t ever messed up, you can’t be sorted. And if you haven’t been shattered, how will you ever glow.)
This one has always been very close to my heart. The lyrics sure are inspiring and romantic of life. The simplistic lens with which life has been penned down is something that I admire. But it’s the voice that first caught my attention and then the rest. And ever since I had the chance to hear Salim Merchant sing it live, it’s a sure shot at goosebumps for me.

Guaranteed (Humming Version) by Eddie Vedder
The entire album by Vedder for Into TheWild is beautiful and fitting. But this specific one finds me peace. I’ve heard it on loop when I just wanted to block everything out. Give it a try and go figure for yourself.

“You hit me once
I hit you back
You gave a kick
I gave a slap
You smashed a plate over my head
Then I set fire to our bed”
– Kiss With A Fist by Florence + the Machine

As opposed to popular judgement, this one for me is about a love/hate relationship. Its about two things that can’t exist with and without one another. The energy that this song presents has made it my wake up song on many days; on days I don’t wish to wake up but I know I have to.

“Tu Soche Ki Ziandagi Ye Na BadalegiKabhi 
Mai Sochu Sab Badalta Tu Na Badlegi Kabh”
-Tu Bole… Mein Bolun by A R Rahman

(Translates to: You think this is life and it’ll never change. I think that its you who will never change)
The lyrics dwell on the ‘glass half full and half empty’ logic (even the lyrics have the same analogy) about people. Its beautiful how two opposing perspectives about the same thing can be equally right. The music has elements of jazz and all things amazing.

“And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
‘Cause she’s just under the upper-hand
And goes mad for a couple of grams
And she don’t want to go outside tonight
‘Cause in a pipe she flies to the Motherland”
-The A Team by Ed Sheeran

Talking about addiction and its struggle,this song offers a new perspective as opposed to the stereotype of pity and hate. I caught on to the meaning way after I’d already fallen in love with the ease of the tone and his sweet voice.

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide”
-Demons by Imagine Dragons

The band today needs no introduction and nor does this song. I’m in love with the rawness and vulnerability that’s been captured in these lyrics that we often don’t find the words to express. Its about coming clean of all the layers and hoping to be accepted; of admitting about all your secrets and wishing to beloved despite them.

“We’re far from home, it’s for the better
What we dream, it’s all that matters
We’re on our way, united”
-SaveThe World Tonight by SHM

Oh the collaboration of these three God-like DJs and their music has been on my playlist in some form or the other. This one is just a reminder of the fact that they came together, gave a lot of us some great memories and times, and then they parted as already promised. Its the life of the super-group that has caught my attention as much as their work; they came together with a pre-decided end, and still aced it all!

Late Night Gratitude

I’m feeling good, particularly about nothing and yet about everything.

Lying in bed at the owl hours of winter night. Spread out like I’m making snow angels. Staring at the overhead fan, trying to count the number of rotations it makes in a minute and miserably failing each time. I laugh to myself and start over; there is no mad rush for doing something better. The strays on the streets have finished their scavenger patrols and the moon is glowing bright enough. It’s a strangely fulfilling feeling, to not be worried about wasting away time on mindless tasks.

It could be the weather or just the effect of watching multiple hallmark movies over the years. After having a full Wednesday and snoozing through most of it. But for now I’m just happy to be wrapped up in my washed-up comforter, wearing yoga pants from when I was two inches too short and a t-shirt I’m not sure how I procured. The night air is a bit chilly, but I’m just too comfortable to get up and reduce the speed of the fan.

Tomorrow is a workday, but for now I can only think of all the things that have been good and great. My mind is swell and humming a song I heard in an Italian movie with subtitles. I mean, we all have our days; I know I do. I have a range from Buttercups to Lisa Simpson, from Olive Oyl to Roadrunner, from Merida to Cinderella. But today, I’m just feeling good.

I’m feeling good, particularly about nothing and yet about everything.

On last new years’ eve I had made a resolution. It was to make sure that I’d try out all activities that have brought joy to me in the past. Why did I make it? I’m not sure; maybe I was just lazy to think of something new. Or maybe becauseI knew I would still find simple pleasure in some, if not all of them. And here I am, feeling content at the end of the year, making lists for the year to come and mostly feeling grateful.

If the past year were a book, its cover would be a vibrant blend of colours light and dark, all thrown together to create something abstract yet so beautiful. If it were a music piece it would have the music of a saxophone, electric guitar and a violin, all together. If it were a garden it would have grass in shades of green and brown, with some weeds and beautiful little flowers.

The opportunity to meet new people, from different places, has always interested me. I’m not big on socialising, but every once in a while I enjoy getting to know someone completely new and preferably very different from myself. I’ve had the privilege of befriending many people this time. Took a weeklong trip with strangers who became friends and some even influencers in their own way.  Took multiple weekend trips and re-connected with old friends and got introduced to some more. Travelled with family and had the chance to re-connect.

I took up many challenges, aced a few and failed a few, but tried all! Started the blog on the word of a stranger who is now a well-wisher. Tried to shrink the waistline, but that never panned out. Learned how to cook something new.Found some of my work targets unrealistic after having have dived headfirst. Defeated my sweet tooth and gained better control over my impulsive binges. Spent another year desperately wanting for a canine companion. Joined the management class and am actually enjoying it. Enjoyed some beautiful sunrises. Missed quite a few night outs and events. Lost my phone.  Ran the 10k I dreamt of. Read very little by comparison. Exploited netflix subscription. 

I found inspiration and admiration in nature. Learned to be more accepting of others. Struggled a bit with my self image. Mended some fences, lost track of some others. Indulged in self-care, gained some sunburns. Sprained my ankle. Developed better calf muscles. Started being more sensitive towards the environment. Dabbled in make-up. Cried till I couldn’t remember why. Laughed until I was doubled up with pain. Danced by letting it all go. Stayed hydrated through party nights. The year has been a ride, not a very smooth one for sure. But today when I look back at all that has passed and everything that I’ve learnt, I know it’s been a beautiful one.

Taking stock of everything that’s putting an aimless smile on my face sure feels good. While the fan continued to reel over-head, I can’t be bothered by the ramblings of the world. For once I’m not in a hurry to fall asleep or do anything else,because right here everything seems to be comfortable.

The song that I’ve been humming  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gk8oSNMQ6xU